ok, a new blog!

lol i changed another blog again. been abandoning and using new blogs again n again. never fulfill my promise to update them though..

lots of things happened these few weeks, hard to list them all down. now i'm on the stage that i dont really know whether i'm doing the right thing or not. it seems that i'm too young to get engaged! not mature enough, did not consider bout financial problems, not even sure whether i chosed the right guy or not!

talked to mummy again this morning, she told me again, that its okay to get engaged, as the commitments that we're giving in is not that much to handle. LOL and she thinks i found the right guy! was not feeling right about the engagement. is an engagement suppose to give someone a title of future Mrs. Ong, or just to declare that i'm no longer available? i love him and i'm willing to give in, but i'm too afraid to look at the consequences.

so lets just think twice again before saying "i do" when he proposes. wonder how it'll be. its like every girl's dream to have a nice nice memorable proposal from the boyfriend. hope mine would be nice enough. it doesnt have to be grand, just want it to be, "love-proving". told him to postphone it a little bit. did not give him a timeline. lets see when he'll propose to me..i think he heard me, he was half alseep..haha..

something i wanna tell you dear..

for all those things we've went through together, i'm willing to give in everything for you in the future. i hope that we'll both be ready someday, get our nice nice wedding ceremony done, like how you've suggested, you want it to be grand. i'll fulfill my promise to register our marriage on 090909, but we have to work very hard to get our dream wedding done! we'll have a really nice one, so that everyone can remember our wedding. u told me that u prefer a buffet style wedding than a wedding dinner, so lets have both. one in the afternoon, one at night. looking forward to that day.

just want you to know, i love you.